In honor of World Mental Health Day, I wanted to talk about the biggest thing that I have done to put my mental health first. For the past 4 years, the highest position in my department has been opened 3 times. All those times my colleagues tried to encourage me to go for the promotion. I would just tell them, “I’m not ready.” No one really understood my hesitation.
The truth is I fully understand the nature of the job. As the head of a department I would have to bear full responsibility for the good things and the bad things. The problem for me is that the money is not worth the stress associated with the job. People say that I should’ve gone for the job because my job is already stressful. What they don’t understand is that yes, at times I am stressed, but it doesn’t compare to the amount of stress I would have if I were head honcho.
I don’t consider this a failure because my role has expanded in other ways. I’ve been dabbling in marketing and the latest thing is event planning. These new responsibilities are things that I would never think I would ever be involved in. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not one for social media, yet somehow I’m involved with creating social media campaigns! I’m also learning about design and I’m involved in the editing process for videos, which also includes scripts.
I say all of this to say that I don’t regret choosing my mental health over money. I didn’t want to be that person who was successful yet unhappy. I took a different path and I hope to implement what I have learned with this blog!