In honor of World Mental Health Day, I wanted to talk about the biggest thing that I have done to put my mental health first. For the past 4 years, the highest position in my department has been opened 3 times. All those times my colleagues tried to encourage me to go for the promotion. I would just tell them, “I’m not ready.” No one really understood my hesitation.
The truth is I fully understand the nature of the job. As the head of a department I would have to bear full responsibility for the good things and the bad things. The problem for me is that the money is not worth the stress associated with the job. People say that I should’ve gone for the job because my job is already stressful. What they don’t understand is that yes, at times I am stressed, but it doesn’t compare to the amount of stress I would have if I were head honcho.
I don’t consider this a failure because my role has expanded in other ways. I’ve been dabbling in marketing and the latest thing is event planning. These new responsibilities are things that I would never think I would ever be involved in. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not one for social media, yet somehow I’m involved with creating social media campaigns! I’m also learning about design and I’m involved in the editing process for videos, which also includes scripts.
I say all of this to say that I don’t regret choosing my mental health over money. I didn’t want to be that person who was successful yet unhappy. I took a different path and I hope to implement what I have learned with this blog!
I have never been a flower person but lately I find myself admiring the flowers that I see on my walks. Once I see a pretty flower I just want to take a picture of it. It’s the way a flower looks once it’s bloomed that does it for me. I don’t care if it delays me in my travels, I will take as many pictures as I need to until I get the one I like.
With the pictures that I end up keeping I try different edits on them to see what speaks to me. I experiment with different editing apps to get the best results. I admit I’m no photographer or professional photo editor. I just go by what I like.
Since the majority of the time I end up doing absolutely nothing with the photos, I decided to add some to Savir Blogs. If you click here you will find more pictures. Don’t forget to check back for updates.
Due to the whole pandemic I haven’t been able to travel. I usually take a trip or 2 in a year to keep me sane but coronavirus messed that all up for me. I have been working almost nonstop for about 10 months, including a lot of weekends. A LOT! My brain started telling me that I was doing too much. I was moving at a fast pace and losing touch with my sanity.
For that reason, I went in to work one day last week and stated, “I have some exciting news!” When I was asked what it was I simply replied, “I’m taking tomorrow off for no reason in particular!” I called it a Mental Health Day. It felt good to basically say they had to figure it out without me.
So, on my day off I did absolutely nothing…for the most part. I did have to submit 2 reports but I was able to do it in about an hour. I also had to choose a training course otherwise they were going to choose for me. I didn’t mind the bit of work on my day off because for the remainder of the day I basically slept! It was nice to have a lazy day.
For a while I was hesitant to take time off just to be at home but it was definitely needed this time around. I enjoyed the laziness so much that I’m already thinking of my next Mental Health Day. Not sure if I’ll stick to staying home or taking a day trip nearby to explore.
I recently went to get my nails done and I let Sonia, my nail lady, freestyle. I typically stick to natural solid colors with no designs so my only input was the pink powder. When she told me that she was going to add glitter I didn’t know what to expect since I find glitter to be too girly for me. At first I thought that the glitter was too chunky but once she buffed and filed it it looked much better.
I must say that these nails remind me of Barbie, especially the glitter ombre nails. Even with the Barbie pink I actually like these nails. The added rhinestones are also much more in my lane of simplicity. This was my first time letting Sonia completely freestyle. Usually I go in with an idea of what I want and she puts her twist to it. But regardless of whether I know what I want or not, Sonia never disappoints me! She gets my nail style which is why I always go back to her.
In honor of National World Photography Day here is a picture of my hometown from 2 years ago.
This is the view of Newark from the outdoor terrace of one of the luxury apartment buildings in downtown. This is one of my favorite views of Newark because of the sword at Military Park. It shows “new” Newark with the addition of the Prudential building and “old” Newark with buildings like Hahne & Co. and the Military Park Building.
Newark has changed a lot over the past couple of years. A lot of the mom and pop stores have closed making the way for stores like Nike and Starbucks. It’s being gentrified slowly. The downside is that money speaks volume and lifelong Newark residents can’t afford the expensive standard of living.
Hey there! I’m Jessica from Newark, NJ. I am a first generation American, born to Salvadoran immigrants in the late 80s. I started “Savir Blogs” on a whim with no sense of direction. I needed something to do since COVID cancelled all of my plans for the rest of the year. As much as I would love to, I knew just eating and sleeping was not the way to go.
This blog is not tailored to a specific topic or aesthetic. It is me “directionless blogging” my shenanigans. The name Savir is a representation of me and I’m looking forward to sharing some of the things that bring me joy. I love sleeping, traveling, photography, spending time with my family, and of course my dog.
I hope that you join me on this new unknown adventure. I don’t know if anything will make sense but it’s going to be purely me.